saturday day out

SATURDAY, lily,cy and I went for karaoke at the aeon mall, it was not bad. i had fun hanging out with them altho they were bullying me most of the time saying tht i have gain weight T.T


Which indeed i have, but tht is only because i lurveeeeee FOOD so much! DAMN, I like eating ppl! so forgive me for my flawwwws =.= But anyhow, they are right, i better control the amount of food i'm taking per day or else im gonna end up looking like a hippo. god forbids!



After singing our asses off at greenbox, Cy wanted to go and wash some of her pics at harvey norman. I was fascinated by it, by the process of bluetoothing your pictures into the machine and WAH LA! ur pic is printed out.. isn't tht awesome? i was so fascinated by it tht i decided to try for myself too and ended up, i wash a total of 11 random pics from my phone tht day. And now i honestly dun know what the hell i'm gonna do with them .

While at harvey norman, there's like a bunch of display beds tht is for sale considering harvey norman is sorta like your next door furniture store. and just seeing the bed makes me all gooey and mellow inside and all i wanna do is just to fall on it and never to rise up again.

however, such event did not occur due to the stupid stupid guard wouldnt let us to even sit on the bed. let alone lie spread angled on it.

I was furious and i remember telling my frens, "i'm gonna go over there right now and give him a piece of my mind!." AGAIN, such event did not occur, cos they sorta manhandle me not to.

Man, if i were just hanging out with the right crowd. i swear, it be like christmas has arrive early just for me.

It's a darn better sight than her hogwarts school uniform

I suddenly have the urge to grab my bag, my ipod, my coat and my 4 inch heels and storm out of the house right now to PAVILLION burberry store. I swear, but what's stopping me right now is, its freaking 3am in the morning and i'm positively sure even such high end couture store doesn't open for 24 hours.



Emma Watson has indeed become the new face for the BURBERRY new autumn/winter collection for 2009/10. Look like someone's all grown up now and has finally swap her HOGWARTS school uniform for something more sophisticated but nevertheless, she looks absolutely stunning here. I do think that she's far more attractive here than kate moss during her burberry days. Kate moss reminds me of a naked poodle somehow.

Ever notice, most burberry men in their ads always look so ghastly to me.


















Sigh.. their trench coats are beautiful. I'm seriously having an internal battle within me should i get one or not? Since i alrd have a few coats to spare and is not even COLD here =.=

It has been awhile since i last shop. but yea, glad to see tht i still have it in me.

Goodnight ppl.

PEACEFUL MORNING

Ok I'm done seducing a guy so i guess it's breakfast time , no? Isn't it like a tradition or legacy or something that has been past down by generations and generations just like those fugly priceless objects they like to call it as heirlooms? 1st to seduce and then to eat.


Anyway, for the 10000 times alrd. The attention whore seeking birds are tearing their way into my thin frosted glass mind which i like to refer metaphorically to as my "patience" level.



I now realises how important breakfast is. I used to skip them and went straight ahead to lunch, tea time, dinner, & supper. And now finally, it seems like the world is spinning in it's own accord and the right direction too and that i can finally enjoy and appreciate how important breakfast is. :D








I SWEAR those eggs above are like literally FRESH from the chicken's ass. cos i can still feel it's stickiness when i hold them =.=

off to bed now, going out soon later ~

An impasse.

Chris came by today. And conflict sorta erupted. The last words i heard from him was, "I will not let you!"

Again and again i have told him, i have explain to him, i have let him in, i have try to make him see what's inside my heart, the lament im trying to tell, the voice inside my heart, the rhythm inside. But he never seems to understand what i'm trying to say.


Chris dear,

You see a cloudless mass right there. A raging deep forest. A distant gloom of shadows. A storm of heavy rain. A grey mist of despair and failure. An impasse.

but do you know what i see? behind all of that.

I see the man that i Love.

this is to remind me how much i lurve youuuu, daddy

-_- Ok, the thing tht bugs me so much this early, is my dad's perfume scent. eeek..

the thing is, before he goes off to work, every freaking morning, he opens my room door to check on me, probably afraid tht i might just "POOF" and disappear into thin air. meh...

and as soon as he poke his head into my room, the perfume, slowly ebb their way into my room and causes my room to smell like Hugo Boss. =.=

meh.. i cant SLEEP NOW. every freaking morning man....


thankew so much daddy


imma gonna go eat breakfast now. -_-

I'M WIDE AWAKE, IT'S MORNING

Its only been 10am in the morning and im alrd in tears. but unfortunately, this time, is not regarding my love life. is something completely different.

i woke up and went down to get me a glass of water and my grandpappa ask me to do him a favour. he then took his cell phone, dial the number and he ask me to speak to my cousin, my baby girl cousin, she's lik 2 this year. And frankly speaking, she's the most beautiful baby i've ever seen. She has this charm in her, not saying other babies don't have them, but she's different you know. she has this glow, this charm, this thing in her that attracts ppl to her and rather instantly they will fall in love at the 1st glance. She has like random ppl on the street coming up to her and complimenting tht she's one of the most cutest/beautiful baby they ever seen. Everyone adores her.

The thing is, her parents is a career people. They don't have the time to take care of her and give her the attention tht she needed and thus my grandmomma and grandpappa decided to take care of her, babysit her. and she has been living with me for almost a year now, under the care of my grandparents. and just recently, she went back home to stay for good due to some wars between the grandparents it seems. the other side wants to take care of her, wants her.

sigh.. my grandparents know better than to argue so they let her go. and honestly, for the 1st time im actually feeling sad for my grandpappa. he loves her so much. adores her. my grandpappa is a guy with tough outlook and tough attitude(used to be like some sort of mafia). he has the look of a guy tht, "clearly you be out of ur mind to mess with a guy like me." I used to remember when i was younger, and some guys will just love to bullied me and my grandpappa have seen to tht himself. He protects me alot. and i think he still is, until now. My grandpappa is an active person,as u can say, hell, he goes swimming, drinking every other night. I think his social life is way moree attractive than mine. i know, its pathetic =.=

But anyway, the thing is, i saw him today clearly for who he is, tht side of him. and it was full of longing, and affection and hope. it was gentle, it was soothing. and he was talking on the phone with my baby girl cousin and he was speaking gently, i see the way he speaks and it burdens me so much tht she is away from him. he loves her so much. he misses her. He was telling her all about the places they used to go together, he used to bring her along and he was reminding her to be a good girl and listen to your parents and many more.

and i just stand there, listening to everything and i suddenly felt this lump stuck in my throat. this stinging in my eyes, this weight in my chest. I quickly ran upstairs and just in time, the tears were alrd flowing down. I crash on my bed instantly and left in my own thoughts.

if you look closely enough, you can find hope in the words of children.

I love my grandpappa.

Old Mcdonald had a farm.

A bunch of us went to MCdonald the other night. I remembered, having to just woke up to another nightmare and i was trying to calm myself down by listening to some songs on my ipod.



The volume was turn on the highest thus i did not hear tht my phone was actually ringing. Only to have 5 minutes later, my mom came and shook my attention and told me tht there was a call for me waiting downstairs on the house phone. Well, it was one of my fren who would suddenly call up and ask me out to yumcha, and tht time, it was alrd 10 pm. and i just woke up but i quickly decided tht i was starving, so i might as well go and force some french fries down my system. it might make me feel better.



Since it was alrd 10 pm. heck, i was alrd in my short babydoll nighties, and i m so lazy to change since she arrive like, 2 minutes later, which i can barely even round out all my essentials tht i was bringing along, so yea let alone changing. so i just threw on my coat and headed out. There were 4 of us there, and 2 of them started gossiping since they have a topic in common. 1 of them was listening half heartedly and the other half, she was teasing me, cos i sorta flash abit. my attire really. =.=



and me? I was just deep in thoughts as usual. but i join in after awhile. we ate, we talk rubbish, gossips r always essentials and done, we headed home.











I don't know why, but there's a hot pink car tht came across in front of us. and i snap the pic.
probably the guy is hot i reckon. i forgot really.






and i don't know wth i did, but i manage to snap this eerie dark pic of the place.







speaking of which, i'm hungry again.




Oh! and only having to come home and found out that spencer has been fighting again, in a bar.
i really don't know what else to say.

Goodnight ppl.

I remembered...

I remembered the 1st time I fell in love. It was a guy from church. I remembered the 1st time I met him, my friend introduced us. We shook hands, had a few talks n shared a few laughter's n before I knew it, it was time to go home. But I remembered that part of smile on my face as I sat on the backseat of my dad's car.

I remembered the next time i met him again. I sorta have this feeling of nervous-ness and anxiety that i could not quiet explain. But no matter, we talked and we exchange phone numbers. We then texts, and the 1st thing i loved about him is his laughter,in text i mean, he would go "WAKAKAKAKAKA" all the time. And i used to think, who the hell laughs like that?? goodness. Lol.



And then later on, i discover, i Loved him. I dunno whether is it love at 1st sight or is it just love. but well, it certainly have made quite a big impact on me cos it was my 1st love and that guy, i used to think he was outta my league, its because i put him on a pedestal, it's because he's a guy with so many good qualities, he exemplified loyalty, integrity, patience, purity, and so much more. I used to think of him as an angel or something ,is because he shines, he shines because of his personality.

Sigh.. well, i remember the part about loving him for at least 1 and the half years. There are times where i wanna just scream out loud that i love you! but i did not. its because i was so afraid.
afraid of rejection i guess. i have been very protective of my heart. But when things became too much, too much for me to handle, i just say it out. i told him I love him. and a week later, he was all mine. =)

But things ended for a reason after several months. It never work out between us and i remembered, how hard was it for me to accept the undeniably truth. I think after a month or so only, i accepted and i can finally start the mourning and grieving process.

well, it took me.. lets see.. A year and a half to finally get over him and finally mend my broken heart. and since then, i was terrify , i was scare of falling in love again. But then again, we cant control who we fall in love with. i try very hard not to fall in love, i did. but it never goes the way i want it to be. There's always gonna be someone there to sweep me off my feet and make me all warm and gentle inside.


and thus, this explain where am i now. the state i am in now. sigh..

well ppl, falling in love may seem scary but i wanna tell you something, believe in love, believe in the wonders, the possibility and the immensity of love. because if that person loves u back, i swear, there is nothing else in the world i would rather have.

I believe in true love. I believe in love at 1st sight. I believe Love conquers all.

No matter how much pain i am in now, how much despair and how much weight and burden im carrying in this fragile heart of mine that seems gonna break and shatter any minute now. I want you to believe that the day u think love is overrated, is the day that you're wrong.

This year, I wished for love. To immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted. And if having that is tragic… then give me tragedy. Because, I wouldn’t give it back for the world.

Tag tag tag~

THREE NAMES I GO BY
1. Chriss
2. Chrissy
3. Christine

THREE JOBS I HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE
1. Fren's personal bi-atch
2. Personal shopper for my aunt
3. and last but not least, being a daughter to my dad 0=)

THREE PLACES I HAVE LIVED
1. Klang
2. Subang
3. Mont kiara

THREE TV SHOWS THAT I WATCH
1. One tree hill
2. Gossip girl
3. The hills

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO (right now)
1. An enchated forest
2. A quiet beach
3. Chris's house i guess

THREE OF MY FAVORITE FOODS
1. French fries
2. Hagen Daz ice cream
3. Waffles

THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO
1. True love
2. A new chanel bag
3. and a LG PRADA

THREE PETS THAT YOU HAVE OWNED
1. Tortoise (kill them all =.=)
2. fishes
3. The attention whore seeking birds

THREE FRIENDS WHO WILL REPLY
1. Nicole (i think so, i hope so)
2. Anisah maybe?
3. allright, i dunno. it comes n go. when they r in the mood, they reply. if not, they die=.=

THREE FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS (for now)
1. Kate voegele
2. Augustana
3. The white tie affair

THREE FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH
1. Car racing
2. Tennis
3. Football

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS
1. Ribena
2. Soy milk
3. TEA( any types of tea)


KTHXBAI.

~ i need help

It's one of these nights again.

How many more of these can i endure?

Until it's finally over.