where have i been all this time??

things change you know. things never happened the same way twice again.

but anyhow, it doesn't matter where i went for the past few months. what matters is, im back!

although i should sound thril or excitment flow through those words but i honestly dun know what else to say or write.

i feel numb. numb by the emotions that have taken control of my heart. alot has happened this past few months.

spm? screw it. never study anyway
nate? he's gone.
shopping? used to love it
status? doesnt matter anymore.

the person i used to be, or atleast once know, is gone. i used to be that girl who had everything, wealth, status, looks, class, friends, bf's.. and at one point, shallow as i was, it keeps me contained.

but not anymore. i then realised tht life is not all about how glamorous your night gown is or how expensive your under garment is or how high you wear your heels or the latest luxury bag you carry. yes, the life tht i have, once have before i throw it all away, cast it all aside, was envy by many ppl.

ppl keep telling me tht, they want my life, they envy my life. fine, u can have it. i dun wan it anymore.

u wanna know why, because i found something so beautiful and so fullfilling in life tht all other fail.

love.

The day that you start thinking that love is overrated is the day that you're wrong. The only thing wrong with love and faith and belief is not having it.