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26 may 08( 2.44am)

N, "it kills me to know tht everytime when u talk about him, i know i could never be tht person to you"
C, "but i don't want you to,i don't want him, i want you"
N, "maybe it just not enough... i love you"
C, " i love you too,n"

27 may 08(11.53pm)

N, "where do u go when your lonely? where do you go when your blue, where do you go when your lonely? i will follow you"
C, "Dancing when the evening fell, Dancing with my wooden shoes,Dancing in my wedding gown, Dancing out on 7th street"
N, "Dancing with my little marriennate, are you happy now?"
C, "i love you"
N, "till death"

28 may 08(5.00am)

N, "wake up every monday,and suddenly its sunday and the week is gone"
C, "the sky turns grey, it drip silently, n there you are"
N, "where do you go when your lonely? i will follow you"
C, "And now, we can have everthing"
N, "walking down the aisle,radiant,beautiful,calm,spring,sunlight, and there you are"

kiss on the lips

and also. i m back and i got my allowance. talk about slow.! finally, my godfather bank in the money in the morning and my dad help me to take it out. well, normallly this money is mainly use for my luxury, my wants, my passion, my desire and all. so i m going to say, it finish off really fast. mostly buying stuff tht i don't need. but starting from now, i'm going to try saving a little i guess. but whatever. this time,i ask my dad to take out the full amount cos lazy wan to every week or a few days go to the boring old bank again and again.if only credit card is eligible for a 17 years old girl! damn. haven't counted yet how much. but u guess?

im baaccckkk!

hey ppl! just came back from singapore like..on sunday late morning. singapore can be very dull sometimes.especially for those who has been there for like 101 million times. anyway, saw chris, and he seems all right. normal, cheery,cool, as usual. well, at first he was shocked to find us there waiting for him in the lobby. but all the same, he's happy to see us, we are happy to see him. the main reason,for flying off to singapore in the 1st place was to try and make some sense into him. and we did. of course we did! but only for a few minutes during dinner time, cos the situation sort of got awkward. so we decided to change the subject. and ever since, we had fun! my aunt took off and went to visit her friends in singapore. while leaving me with my couz, we had fun but we didn't go out so much from the suite. for the whole day, i was hanging out in the suite, eating from the bar, drinking from the bar,throwing up from the bar,swim a little,sauna, steam bath.... alot actually. but i still had fun as i get to relax, and my couz is with me all the while. its been quite long since i last saw him,and bonded with him. so on sunday was really a bonding day for us. then in the night,during dinner time, he's asking us whether is it ok to invite his gf cos he wants us to meet her. we were like.. er.. we really have to go dear,or else we wil not catch our flight,maybe next time.. hell no, i want to meet tht girl. cos the last thing i want is as soon as i step my feet down in malaysia, ppl firing me with questions about her. tht is something they should acknowledge by themselves. and also, my ass didn't show up at school for like 2 days,yesterday n today, teacher will be wanting tht stupid letter and hopefully when i go to school tomorow,pls no more lecture as to why school is important! its so damn boring! next..


P.S , and Sam, he wants u to post his iphone to him in singapore. i dunno, u call him and ask. i'm just the messenger. you know you want to, chriss@xoxo

life sucks

well, lets see. recently purchased a victoria secret bag from the us. today just received it, and sadly the bag somehow doesn't compliments with my mood so i gave it away instead. charity work and bla and bla and bla u know. it's my my dad's idea anyway. moving on, nate on the other hand purchase the victoria's secret supermodel eau de parfume,body mist and lotion for my delight. and he gave me yesterday when he came over to my house. such a sweet guy. thanks bf! atleast, i'm happy with this item. and also, why can't the teachers leave me alone?!?! god! it is damn right my ass problem tht i do not want to go to school whenever i wishes. my dad is ok with it,he didn't even scold for heaven sake. he is just being a good father by making her daughter happy. i mean,is not like i don't study at home. i do. but teachers apparently,just can't leave us alone. and yet trying to accuse us of doing something tht we didn't do or do or whatever, i couldn't remember. it's really annoying sometimes,wouldn't u agree? but whatever,i don't give a tiny rats ass anyway. if i want to go to school,i'll be going because my dad said if i go like one weeks 4 times atleast,he said he's going to get me a chanel bag. hmmm. tempting, but i haven't decide yet. we'll see.
and also this sat and i m going to singapore trying to find my couz and probably slap him across his handsome face for being stupid, but then again,i love weddings. who knows i will just run up to him and hug him and give him the fake smile tht says 'i totally support u!'. he need to learn by himself,not me trying to make sense into him. and sunday, my family and i are heading to the beach to have a nice relaxing weekend. thank god! after everything tht had happen,i need this.

chriss@xoxo

update ppl!

ok lets get to the chase on what's been going on in my life ofcourse. allow me. first and foremost,my couz is about to so call propose to this girl he met in the bar. this matter has been growing very serious over the past few days,he suddenly didn't answers calls or msgs or emails. so,therefore,we are all worry over his ass,what is he going to do next. he just can't marry her or who ever tht girl is. it's just wrong and let alone his nature. he was kinda disappointed with me,i know. it happened 2 weeks ago,i called him and i tried to persuade him to come back and not to simply making decisions to married someone. he listened to me,he always does. all i have to do is beg a little bit,look thoughtfully into his eyes,and probably whine, it worked. he always listened to me despite everything. but this time he didn't. he said tht i' m the one who's always advicing him to get into a real relationship,and now he has one,why am i not happy for him? damn! i then said, i m happy for you tht you even considered about being in a real relationship,but i never said to marry someone. i told him,that this will not work out and your breaking your mom's heart by proposing to some girl in the bar who btw we all don't know. he then said tht,he always thought tht i m the one will understand him better than anyone else and clearly he is wrong. he also said tht he's really disappointed in me,and then... he click the phone shut. god. i want him to be happy of course,but now he's really acting like an immature spoilt brat. if he decided to marry her,fine,i stay put and support him. if tht is what he wants. but clearly his dad will never allowed. over his dead body more like. he just mentioned to us all this yesterday at our family dinner in this restaurant in a private room, with a small bar,and even a toilet,plus karaoke. i know we should all be bummed out or whatever,but i enjoyed having dinner there and having a drink. after one week of school hectic hours and tuition,i need stuff like tht to cool me down. cheers!
another thing was,on thursday last week,nate asked me not to go to school today,i was curious but then i was thinking,more hours for my beauty sleep,which idiot will say no right? i slept on till 11 o'clock and he woke me up again,asking me to stay awake because there's a suprise for me. i assumed he is going to showed up at my doorstep again but evidently i was wrong. a postman showed up,and he deliver a package for me. i tored it opened and it's a perfume. armani code for women. i love it. i called him and thank him and asked him why suddenly. he said very romantically,is to swept me off my feet. god i love him. who wouldn't? but sadly,he's mine. hands off bitch.
and guess what? my purchased had finally arrived today. as u can see,i bought a wrislet from COACH,and i purchased like nearly a month ago,and today it arrived at my doorstep. finally!
it's this limited edition coach signature beaded optic wristlet tht i can guarantee u,you can never find it in malaysia. never. i love it. so the next time if you see me carrying a small pouch around my wrist,you know tht's the one im talking about. keep staring to get an eyefull,cos trust me,soon i'll be changing into something else.and u know it.


P.S jess hunn,you know,i know, you never like coach item tht much.. just kidding, all the more,another reason for u to envy me.

you know you can't stand it. chriss@xoxo

annoying ppl!

now,its 3.40 am in the morning and i don't fancy freaking msgs or phone calls regarding why my blog hasn't been update yet. and for those who kept on sending msgs and asking me about why didnt i update my blog,is it due to im busy having sex with nate. u know who u r. no,for the last time,i m not. so be a dear,and pls don't bug me or else i will call nate to go after u. even if you're his best friend or best best friend,i don't care. haven't you heard,he's my man and he will kick your ass,if i say so. smile. now goodnight ppl! i will update it soon. you know you love me,chriss@xoxo

hey ppl!

well,let's see.. today is thursday and the time is 7.41 am and im at home browsing through my instyle magazine on my super soft lenient king size bed. ya,i know what you are thinking, you are thinking tht my ass should be at school right now,no doubt sitting on the school pavement for assembly. actually tht was my first option this morning when i got up,but halfway through the getting ready part,i realised,school? seriously? and i ask myself do i really want to go to school??before i could answer tht,i straight away went over to my dad's room and make an announcement tht i'm not going to school. they asked why of course,just to make it sound like they are responsible or something,but i know they could care less, so i told them,not really in a mood for a school day and i rather stay at home and watch one tree hill season 5. maybe later,i would go out and have breakfast with my friends too. obviously,my dad said ok. normally,if it's other parents,the answer is no,no way in hell actually. but not my dad,thank god. because my dad believed tht if he treat me now with everything i want to basically make me happy,then in future when he retire,i would do the same,treat him nicely back not just abandon him somewhere. i already told him,if now you get me what i want then in future you can get anything you want too,just say the name,a yacht,a mansion,anything,i'll get you as long as you get me anything i want now. tht's a promise indeed. so ya,tht be it, for as to why i m not at school this morning.
another thing,guess what happened this week? my dear couz called me on monday and informed me a very so called wonderful news. he is getting married it seems. not yet in the married part but he is about to buy the engagement ring and propose to some girl he met for like a few weeks and he claimed tht she's the one. and btw,he's only 19 and soon turning to 20. i assumed he was kidding of course,until my aunt and uncle came to my house on tuesday bringing the news tht it is true! so now basically my family is in a crisis,his dad is pissed off and he warned his son not to do stupid stuff or else he will cut him off from the family money and his mom is just stiff,she doesn't showed much expression but i know she's a mess inside. who wouldn't? my dad even personally warned me not to get on to my couz level. we'll see. oh and he even asked me to go ring shopping with him. charming. but still he's my couz and whatever decision he make,i will be there for him. still,. it be nice to have this wedding because i can be a bridesmaid then . an excuse for getting another designer dress. wait,. as if i ever need an excuse.

i think i go get my eye brow shave,i m just not happy.

chriss@xoxo