Hey guys, i just realised that i have a blog and now... shoot me already.

Well, i guess it's been a habit of mine to abandon stuff that i don't really care. Maybe that just me, i don't really appreciate what i have until it is gone. But i can tell you this much, i never regretted the decision i made so far and i believe nothing is ever gone entirely. There will always be traces that is left behind that is always gonna remind you, this thing happened and it's gonna be there forever. Its never really gone entirely, isn't it?

The year is ending, 2009 is ending very soon. I see some people, this year for them is the best year of their lives and they are actually sad that is going to be over and then, there are some people who claimed this is the worst year of their lives and they can't wait for it to be over. But what about me?

This year, i got everything i wanted and everything i wished for.. but, in a way, i lost even more.

But that doesn't mean that it has been a real crappy year for me, in many ways i can still appreciate and find the blissfulness of happiness and memories throughout this year and hold on onto it. Its just a simple reminder that is not so bad after all because i know i have given everything i've got. For what is worth, i believe what you give is what you get in return.

This year, i wished for love. To immerse myself in someone else and to wake a hear long afraid to feel. Despite the turn of event, the rise of difficult circumstances and the rise of heartaches and despair even stronger than ever . My wish was granted. And if having that is tragic.. then give me tragedy. Because, i wouldnt give it back for the world.

Right now i'm with a guy that i couldn't possibly love more and i'm happy. But I guess its always been that way.. wanting to be loved... to find someone that makes your heart ache in a good way. And i have that, and i wouldn't even for a second give it back for the world.

The rest of your life is a long time and whether, you know it or not it's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices, or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is, but for the most part you get what you give. Let me ask you a question. What's worse: not getting everything you wished for or getting it but finding out it's not enough? The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now.

This year has been a great year and i'm sure the next one is going to be just as great. My belief for that will help create the fact.