I just can't

However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you

I will always love you - Chriss



But i can't do this anymore.

Type of GUYS i really hate

Apparently i have too much time to waste and too much time to think. So here are a list of types of guys tht i really despised. =.= enjoy!


Commitment-phobia Guy:: One would think that after spending 6 months of dating he would commit but he's always coming up with some excuse that he can't commit (Because we're long distance.... because we have an age gap... because we were friends in the beginning... because... because...because...) He is so not worth the time. It got me thinking... what if I missed the perfect man of my dreams because I was with this loser? (A friend of mine is going through this crap)


Lesson learned:: If he's not on the same page after three months, he can go fuck off, permanently.



The Asshole:: Thinks he can get everything/anyone. Has a "fuck you" attitude to the general public. He makes you do all the work. He has no respect for women in general. Still think that men have the upperhand.


Advice:: Don't even go near him.



Older Men:: I'm talking about the men who are in their forties & up who is looking to date someone twenty-plus years younger. If they looked like Paul Newman or George Clooney, it's a little different. But the ones who have acquired a beer belly and have double chins... what the fuck are they thinking? It makes me sick to my stomach.

YOU:: DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!



Selfish Guy:: This guy should probably be a subcatergory for "The Asshole" but this is a little different. He's kind of like the only child. He's nice but he has that selfishness about him. He only thinks about himself. It's always "me" in the relationship. Not "us".


Trial and Error:: If you like him that much, I guess he can be made to change. But if you're lazy like me.... meh... whatever.



The Leech:: He acts like he really loves you and moves in with you and he leeches off of you. He's jobless and is a slob at home. He takes you for granted and expects you to take care of his financial aspects. And the funny thing is those type of guys tend to cheat on you. He's a sucky version of a pimp (I'm just merely pointing out that he's a lowlife. Not that you're a prostitute :D)

DAD knows best:: My dad always said to watch out for that guy before you even think about moving in. Are you the one always paying? No matter how much you "love" him, get rid of him. It's for your own good. Just think of him as a disgusting, hairy, spider that you want to flatten with the bottom of your stilleto pumps.


Mr. Cheapass:: Okay, I'm talking about the guy who splits the bill because he's too stingy to pay for your dinner. Or he complains that the girl should pay because he paid for last week's dinner. I'm not saying a guy should go into debt or have to pay every single time. He should at least be willing to spend an x-amount of dollars. Having said that, I just think that a guy who complains about money shouldn't even have a girlfriend. Being forced to pay because Mr. Cheapass is throwing a hissy fit is not the same as wanting to treat the guy.

Hmmm:: If he tells you to pay, I would say that I'm going to the restroom, walk out of the restaurant, and never speak to him again.

Rolling Stone

Lookie, what have i got here. It's Blake and Leighton newest magazine cover shoot, and this time, they manage to land on the cover of ROLLING STONE magazine. They look incredibly gorgeous here and absolutely stunning and i was thinking, just moments ago, i have got to make a blog entry about this. And presumably 7 minutes later, here i am, blogging this post.

For those who doesn't know whose these girls are, they are the lead character in the Tv hit show series,Gossip Girl. Everyone loves GG.

They still look amazing eventhough there;s a bald dude in the middle.

And a few of the whole GG cast snapshots while having the time of their lives, pillow fighting.

Leighton Meester everyone.

XOXO

OMG T.T

allright, before i hit my bed.



there's just something i've been dying to tell u guys, been dying to just scream it out loud at the top of my lungs, since it has bottled up inside of me since yesterday night.. and normally i dun do this kinda stuff, so if ur gonna think tht im nuts, crazy, unstable, ect. pls bear in mind to overlook my this tiny tiny little flaw and don't judge me cos i don't normally do this,..



i've been going insane, crazy honestly.. it really is just too much to bear, too much to handle such news, and i guess im just gonna go ahead and do it before i chicken out again >_<





so here goes... *deep breath* EDWARD FREAKING CULLEN is damn fukking HOT IN this poster. like fukking madness HOTTTTTTTTTTT. so HOTTTTT tht i got all numb and mellow. no kidding. yea yea, call me typical, call me whatever, who cares. all i know is tht he is DAMN effing hot in here and its literally torturing meee. T.T







ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i do feel better now, letting it all out. thank u so much ppl for reading my nonsense ranting..

kthxbai.

been tagged.. T.T

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: (COKE,4.30AM in the morning)
2. Last phone call: (Chris,asking me where the hell was i, but infact i was in the kitchen =.=)
3. Last text message: (Lily, asking me to go lepak with her)
4. Last song you listened to: (Jesse mccartney-How do u sleep)
5. Last time you cried: [NOW, just finish watching a sad ending on ugly betty]

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: (i wont call tht dating)
7. Been cheated on: (Nope)
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: (not really)
9. Lost someone special: (ya i did, people always leave)
10. Been depressed: (like duh!?)
11. Been drunk and threw up: (drunk? YEAH! threw up? NO NO)

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. PRISTINE WHITE
13. NAVY BLUE
14. RED

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: (YES i have ^^)
16. Fallen out of love: (yes, but it doesnt matter)
17. Laughed until you cried: (yes)
18. Met someone who changed you: (not really, i am still who i am)
19. Found out who your true friends were: (no need for tht cos i alrd know who they r)
20. Found out someone was talking about you: (You are nobody until ur talked about)
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: (eeww. NO? XD)
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?: (errr.. 80% or so)
23. How many kids do you want to have: ( 2 boys)
24. Do you have any pets: (err, if u call a pond full of fishes and tht attention seeking whore birds a pet, then i guess, yeah i do)
25. Do you want to change your name: (maybe?)
26. What did you do for your last birthday: (my dad took us all to japan,right b4 spm,and i got anything i wanted in tiffany's)
27. What time did you wake up today: (4pm)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: (Online, chatting,eating,crapping)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: (My own house?)

30. Last time you saw your Mother: (this morning,6.02am)
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: (i would change how things are currently now)
32. What are you listening to right now: (jesse mccartney again)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: (errr.. no?)
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: (The attention whore birds tht r making alot of noises)
35. Most visited webpage: (Youtube)
36. Whats your real name: (christine)
37. Nicknames: (Chriss,Chrissy,tin tin=.=, baby girl =.=)
38. Relationship Status: (single)
39. Zodiac sign: (Scorpio,sheep/lamb)
40. Male or female?: (Female)

41. Elementary?: (honestly,i have forgotten)
42. Middle School?: (errr.. forgotten, really)
43. High school/college?: (smkbu)
44. Hair colour: (brownish, a few strands of golden-ish colour)
45. Long or short: (Long)
46. Height: (166cm i think)

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: (now? not really)
48: What do you like about yourself?: (my persistency sometimes)
49. Piercings: (a pair on my ears)
50. Tattoos: (dun have one now, but will one day)
51. Righty or lefty: (righty)

FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: (never i think)
53. First piercing: (when i was young,my momma trick me)
54. First best friend: (i only have one so far, nicole)

55. First sport you joined: (errr.. running on the field)
56. First vacation: (couldnt remember, but disneyland in tokyo i think)
58. First pair of trainers: (when i reach puberty? nah kidding, couldnt remember)

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: (ate MCd just now)
60. Drinking: (plain old water)
61. I'm about to: (go sleeepp, heck, its 6am alrd=.=)
62. Listening to: (those damn attention seeking whore birdies)
63. Waiting on: (honestly? MY BED!!!!)

YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?: (yeah)
65. Get Married?: (OF COURSE!)
66. Career?: (we'll see how things goes. jk. of course)

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: (EYES)
68. Hugs or kisses: (ME LIKE KISSY KISSY)
69. Shorter or taller: (Taller but not too tall)
70. Older or Younger: (OLder)

71. Romantic or spontaneous: (can it be romantic and spontaneous at the same time?)
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: (BOTH! dun mind me adding, legs too)
73. Sensitive or loud: (SENSITIVE)
74. Hook-up or relationship: (relationships)
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: (trouble maker is funnay)

HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: (so far no, but if ppl were to dare me, now thts gonna be a whole different answer now)
77. Drank hard liquor: (i dunno, is vodka all consider hard liquor?)
78. Lost glasses/contacts: (sunglasses yaaaaa. i broke it by sitting on it T.T)
79. Sex on first date: (NO)

80. Broken someone's heart: (yessss...)
82. Been arrested: (errr. not arrested but been caught before by the police)
83. Turned someone down: (yeah.. normal thing, no?)
84. Cried when someone died: (no no, i laugh my ass off when someone died. of cos i cried)
85. Fallen for a friend?: (err.. how can u have fallen for a stranger? he has to be ur friends 1st, no?)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: (yeah i do, most of the time)
87. Miracles: (of course, eveything is possible)
88. Love at first sight: (In a way, yeah)
89. Heaven: (yes)
90. True love : (all the way, i believe in always and forever)
91. Kiss on the first date: (ah thts normal)
92. Angels: (Ofcourse, castiel :P)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: (sigh.. in a way, yea)
95. Did you sing today?: (i always sing)
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: (sigh.. if u call tht cheating, well then, yea)
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: (i would go back to ammend the mistakes i have made)
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: (it would be the day i thought i fallen in love with my ex, because it was wonderful)
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: (YES, VERY MUCH)
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: (ah im finally done, going to bed now. night ppl)

I wouldn't have it any other way.

Its raining. Couldn't be more perfect.. the finishing touch.

Sigh.

I guess this was it, for them. They just pick up and drove away without any goodbyes. And i don't think they'll be coming back. They are gone for good.

I love them since the day i know about them. I watched them go through so many struggle, obstacles and pain in life and finally,. finally, the worst have past and i know, starting from now, everything is going to be all right with them. It feels like a beginning of always. A promise. A reward for persisting through life so long alone. and finally, they have it.

It saddens me, but i couldn't think of a more perfect person in the world to deserve this than they do. I love them. And i wouldn't have it any other way.




I look at them and some how i feel safer. I don't know if i can explain that, but they give me hope.

Because, we all can use a little hope sometimes. That feeling that everything's is going to be okay and that there's going to be someone there to help make sure of that.

I wouldn't have it any other way for them. Sometimes happiness doesn't come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and the quiet nobility of leading a good life. I wouldn't have it any other way.


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I sat down and gaze around. In a room which i remembered clearly.

Matt : You think about him much?
Chriss : Every day.

hottie,bastards,idiots.. and friends.

im bored and i currently have a few minutes left to spare before my dinner. im cooking actually =.= for myself only, cos i cant eat those food on the table now. lost my appetite i guess.

anyway, last saturday, i and a bunch of my friends went out to yumcha, 1st the location was in MCD and then it shifted off to a mamak place but boy, was there ALOT of ppl tht showed up. i barely recognize half of them. there were just alot of ppl. we were all sitting in the mamak and u can easily see, our group is the biggest there. but i have fun seeing my old frens again as i miss them, some tht actually went off to college and they came home during the weekends and some who are actually too damn busy with their life.

i was sitting in the mamak and out of no where, 2 tables from ours, i sense tht someone was looking at me, i turn and stare and it was tht girl, it took me a while to remember who the hell is she. she looks awfully familiar but i cant seem to place her. and i asked one of my other friend and she told me, that's the twins from my old school, previous school. then only i realised ah, tht girl. i dun know why, she keep staring at me. wtf wei. i was busy talking to my friends, she keep on looking at me, not only look and then she turn aside and whisper to her guy friends or bf's or whatever about it and they all started to turn their head and look at me.

damn i just got so annoyed, i really did. so i look at them back, roll my eyes and do a mock grin. i think they were shocked for a moment, but they still look. bastards! =.=

nvm, before i actually let my temper get the best of me, out of no where, this hottie showed up. ok, i dun know him. but damn, was he hot.
he has like the sexiest body ever with the right muscles in place, is neither too big nor too small , is just purr-fect. and he was wearing a black shirt, and damn, it accents his body shape, line and muscles perfectly. i couldn't keep my eyes of him. i dun normally stare at guys. face it, its sorta their job. LOL.

and he was wearing this white bermuda crop pants. and with a cap too.
such handsome face he has, perfect feature. and i was nudging my friend to check him out. and she was like, frowning at me. asking me to concentrate, get my head in the game or something cos she was in the midst of telling me something important. so I did, i channel back my full concentration on her and out of no where i hear tht hottie speak and he was speaking in ENGLISH. damn! i just squealed in my sit and i was like telling my friend, omfg he speaks english too. now he has like the whole package. perfect! XD LOL.

so from time to time, i will occasionally glance at him and my fren, ya she did, she smack me in the forehead pulak. =.= i was lik, wth?? and she was *rolling her eyes*. damn. he was hot. :(

but i went home anyway, knowing me, its all just harmless fun, i wont take it to the next level. as i got up from my sit and went to the car, those bastards stare again. idiots.

i guess tht is all. time for my dinner now. Itadakimasu. ^^