ppl always leave

sorry, its been a habit of mine actually. abandoning things tht i do not care so much about. my bad. but anyway here are the updates.

nothing interesting happened lately, except the fact tht my best fren,N is going off to new zealand soon. errrrr... next week soon. i know!!! i was in denial when she told me this fact, i was like, No! no! u cant go, u cant leave me because i wont let u. she just cant leave me.
i mean, what am i going to do without her?? she's always been my best fren, the one i cant live without, the one who's always there for me, the one who stuck by me, the one who knows who i am really and the one who's able to see right through me and still loves me despite everything.
and now she's leaving. shook. she just cant leave.
i dunno wat else to do. she asked me to come with her. she asked me to leave everything behind and go with her and never come back. but... how can i do tht? ya, over the past years, i cant wait to get out of malaysia, i admit, i cant wait to fukking get out of this god-damn country. but now when she asked me to go with her, the thought of doing so, shook. i dun think i can. i dun think im able to.

i mean, my life is here. my family, my friends, my ...... i dun know really. but leave everything here? and go start a fresh? wat is there to run from? i aint running. i dun wanna start a fresh. i wanna stay here because staying is the right thing to do.